Sucker

It's all in the eyes.

Two Ways To Choose

On a razors edge,
Remain behind, go straight ahead.

It's awful clear I'm stuck behind.

What Is This?

I don't understand it, I'm at Peters yet i still feel the same.
Usually this place is an escape and gives me chance to elude insomnia.
Seems the only thing I'm eluding is sleep.
It's still the same feelings and they're eating away at me.
I contemplate a lot of things and it seems no matter what I think,
You are at the forefront of my mind.
I welcome myself into this deluded mess.
Every little detail of my past will swallow everything I've become whole.
Question is what will rise from the ashes?
Do I resume this regret, further amplified by my self loathing?
Will I view life from another perspective?
What is the purpose of any of this?
What could I ever achieve that will make my existence worthwhile?
I want to fucking know.

何か新しい

私は孤立しているような気がする。

私はもどかしさを感じ。
しかし、イム物事がまたいいことを待っている。
:)

You Want To

Travel over 10,000 (which is also over 9000 ;D) miles just to see me for my birthday.
I don't get why you would want to make such an effort.
What if I'm nothing like you think?
What if it's a shit experience?
I'm not worth that kind of effort or expense, I'm just a stupid teenager.
I wonder who would make that kind of effort for me.
I don't think many, if any would so what is it that makes you foolish enough?
I am eager none the less and who knows it may give me an added incentive to return home.
Let us just hope it goes to plan.

What Do I Do When

All that I've put behind me suddenly tries to come back?
I don't know how to take it.
Why now?

Just Love The World

That Won't Love You Back.

It's Just

All the little things that define perfection,
Simple moments and objects that mean everything,
Words and phrases and the slightest touch,
Not having to worry about making an appearance,
Being comfortable no matter the situation,
I don't know where you went but I hope we meet again.

Old Words

But still just as true.

"And just like the sun sets and is removed from view,
This reminds me of the distance from you,
You are but a sunset away and this alone is my decay,
If only the sun never slept."

6 Hours

I often sit and wonder where I could be if I never left.
I think how would I be right now if I didn't spend time growing up in Melbourne.
But now I wonder what I could have if I went home now.
There's so much I want to leave behind but so much I wish I could take with me.
There's something I like that's back home too.
I have a desire to try and make something of it.
I want to start fresh with nothing but my name and the best family I could hope for.

Lag

Fuck you.

Mother Mother

I need you so bad you have no idea.
I know you will probably never read this, but I need you more than ever.
I've never felt so lost or empty.
I've never felt so fucking alone.
I've never felt such extreme sorrow.
This hatred is on a whole new level and it's all towards myself.
I feel like a failure.
I feel like everything in its entirity has been my fault.
I'm so far from where I thought I would be.
I miss your support, you've always helped me more than anyone.
Since you've been gone I've not known how to cope.
I just sit in my room most of the time avoiding as much as I can.
I miss all the times we've talked and all the things you've helped me overcome.
I need your help for this one too.
It's the most difficult thing to face besides having to adapt to life without you and Lauren.
I can't do it alone, oh believe me I've tried.
You've always been the best at showing me the brighter side but without you I'm in the dark.
I have become nothing.

23/4-26/4

Sucks to have to say goodbye so soon. So glad I met this kid.


Bendigo, pointless trip for a delayed show. Met L-Jubbzzz and Hayley and caught up with Kyle though.


I will never tire of this track, it came at the right time.


Pictures tell a thousand words, heres some pics for the thousands of words I can't think of at this point in time.


The 20mm saviour!


So these are the jeans that survived a couple of shows and a few kilometers or travel. Deserving of a good wash.

Red Shore was insane, can't say I enjoyed getting kicked out.
Spent a mad night at mine with J-J and Matt. Didn't sleep till fucking 7, worth every second.
Trecked all over the place to see people, drank more choc vitasoy.
Sang so much for both shows, have even more bruises.
Unplanned weekends are amazing, wouldn't change a thing!
Also note J-J's toothpaste sucks, must bring my own next time.

Miles Away

This is home. It may not be much but I miss it.
This is where everything began, where I belong.
I will one day return after this pointless roaming.

I Had

A finger touching change but it was just out of reach,
I failed to grasp the chances thrown at me,
Seems I couldn't see the opportunity before me,
I never expect anything from anyone,
So I guess this cloud over me prevents vision,
Because I didn't see your feelings grow.

Idols and Anchors

One of my sources of inspiration.

I Feel

Like my life is suffocating me.
I need to learn, I need a new challenge for the day.
Monotony gets old, the pay isn't reason enough to continue.
There is no wisdom for me to take from anyone there.
Noone to relate, I'm adrift in a sea of nothing.
My life has sunk so low, what happened to the promise of the new year?
Where has my hope gone.
Motivation is a stranger to me, I want to reconnect.

WANDERLUST

I've drifted from myself,
You led me astray,
Because you broke me.

The World Turns

I am a really bad drunk.

A Shift

Things are looking up, this is the change I need,
I'm taking the challenge, on to the Indigo Plateau.

Burn City

I want to watch it burn to the ground.

Routine Bites Hard

This Is What I Rely On.

Hope

The only hope I have is that every little thing reminds you of me,
That it'll all just build up into regret.

But that will never fucking happen so I lied, I have no hope.

Or Not

These heart strings are so fucking thick I cannot sever them alone,
How can I overlook my most favoured recollections.

26/3/10

I'm free.

Zero

And now I'm nothing.

Foolish

this is the moment i am unguarded,
and i will foolishly give my heart to you,
i can just pretend, we can just pretend,
that this can be so much fucking more,
those eyes whos gaze scream out louder,
shine so much brighter than anything or anyone,
i find my hand in yours it feels like home,
i thought i could never find my way back again,
but here we are in the most forbidden place,
the fragments of time we share are dangerous,
whats the point in falling in love if love could never work,
perhaps thats what makes these moments so intense,
desire and lust blindly feeding the feeling,
growing stronger but fading just as fucking fast.

Clarity

Its all so clear what makes me happy now.
The moments nothing matters because you're with the people you'd give it all for.
The lack of sleep, the jokes, the memories, the plans.
The human experience.

No longer confined I feel fucking free.

Become

What the fuck am I to anyone?
I don't know my place.
I don't feel anything for anyone but you,
Yet you hurt me the most.

My heads trapped in one memory,
Theres no escaping it now.
I live each day as a spiral.
I curse your fucking name for cursing me.
I want that memory to be life,
And let life return to being the nightmares I used to have.

Pointless

I don't even know what to call this feeling.
I don't see the point in these words.
I don't see the reason for anything.

Solitude

I feel like I have noone.
I've shut myself off from feeling.
What is it to be human?

7/3/10

Oh how I've missed having the words that mean the world to me screamed in my face.
How I've missed so many kids and yet in that moment it's like I never left.
But I can't remember feeling hope like I did this day.
Life has shifted perhaps to the start of something amazing.
Time will reveal everything.

Simplicity

I don't want to be human.
To know no emotion to feel no pain.
I'll raise my fucking hands to be free.
I'm trapt by passion.
Pertubation is all I fucking know.
I havn't felt alive, I've slowly died.
You took my heart and I live on.
Plagued by nightmares and memories.
I want out of this Missery.
Fuck destiny I believe in nothing.
Nothings meant to be you make them that way.
Every action has lead to an epiphany.
I see things clearly now.
You hold less promise than you seek.
To put it simply, set me free.
Unchain these wrists.
Keep me prisoner no longer.
Let me walk the fuck away.

Life.

Always empty, lacking promise.
Never as sweet as intended.
In contrast we never get what we want.
It's always gone before we can appreciate it.
We are the last bit at the bottom.
The shit no one fucking wants.

Less

1.directionless

Am I the problem here,
In a world of dreams shattered,
Is it my own fault?

I feel like I've lost direction,
this world fucking scares me,
the unkown is so unkind,
unaware but understanding,

do i accept this?



2.Depthless

her voice lingers, the echo of the highest point,
but how a chasm can seperate even the strongest of hearts,
and after all the travel, strength has faded,
is there hope for anyone, when this world can separate, isolate and navigate us,
is this future as fucked as it truly seems,
carry on walking kid, homes a stones throw away,
but in this reality theres no gravity keeping us down,
yet we power through as though each steps our last,
we inhale and exhale the precious life we have,
we flood the world in our sorrows when the time may be,
but we adapt and change hoping to never fucking break,
humanity is flawed, perhaps we were always broken.



3.Heartless

highs and lows,
come and go,
youll never love again,
the voice in your head,
spells out your defeat,
you hide away but never alone,
emotion fucking stalks,
there is no escape,
no chance to fucking breathe,
to dwell on memories,
well fuck that.




4.Meaningless

I dont want to be a man who cannot escape a past,
whats done is fucking done and what can be done cannot be so much as imagined,
my own fucking future is down to my own fucking mind, my own fucking hands,

i hold nothing in this world, i am always alone,
this is not isolation this is fact,
my mind is secluded from every other being that makes this harsh population,
my will will not bend it will not break,
no matter what pressure it under goes i will not give in,

my mind is stronger than my heart but still it beats on,
these lungs are not ready to drain the air i fucking breath,
the only thing thats is dead to me is what used to fucking be,
i can only try to be a better, stronger man,
if not for me then for this cold fucking world.




5.Tasteless

bitter and blunt,
bitter and sweet,
but always bitter.

i hate you, i hate this, i hate me,
i hate to hate but its all i feel,
ive never trusted so much,
or opened up like this,
i hate that i did,
i gave you me in all honesty,
all entirity, i was yours,
where the fuck was my piece of you.




6.Worthless

I'm a ghost among men,
A living shadow,
Lost in a world,
He does not belong,
I show no reflection,
Just an empty frame,
A mirror image,
Of whats left inside,
Each blow deadly,
Upon an untame heart.










so this is what me and peter are getting up to
keen to record it all

its a spiral of emotions
after everything you feel less of a person
hence the title
and all the tracks being something-less

whats expressed is how ive felt at certain points
often in a moment
somethings that have been said i do not feel at this point in time
its merely a representation of what was felt in the moment of occurance


my head is fucked
so yeah you can probs tell by all this

note:its not in order yet, it isnt complete

Belief

I have none.

Animosity

I hate my entire existance.