Sucker

It's all in the eyes.

Two Ways To Choose

On a razors edge,
Remain behind, go straight ahead.

It's awful clear I'm stuck behind.

What Is This?

I don't understand it, I'm at Peters yet i still feel the same.
Usually this place is an escape and gives me chance to elude insomnia.
Seems the only thing I'm eluding is sleep.
It's still the same feelings and they're eating away at me.
I contemplate a lot of things and it seems no matter what I think,
You are at the forefront of my mind.
I welcome myself into this deluded mess.
Every little detail of my past will swallow everything I've become whole.
Question is what will rise from the ashes?
Do I resume this regret, further amplified by my self loathing?
Will I view life from another perspective?
What is the purpose of any of this?
What could I ever achieve that will make my existence worthwhile?
I want to fucking know.

何か新しい

私は孤立しているような気がする。

私はもどかしさを感じ。
しかし、イム物事がまたいいことを待っている。
:)

You Want To

Travel over 10,000 (which is also over 9000 ;D) miles just to see me for my birthday.
I don't get why you would want to make such an effort.
What if I'm nothing like you think?
What if it's a shit experience?
I'm not worth that kind of effort or expense, I'm just a stupid teenager.
I wonder who would make that kind of effort for me.
I don't think many, if any would so what is it that makes you foolish enough?
I am eager none the less and who knows it may give me an added incentive to return home.
Let us just hope it goes to plan.

What Do I Do When

All that I've put behind me suddenly tries to come back?
I don't know how to take it.
Why now?

Just Love The World

That Won't Love You Back.